Anonymous asked:Change My Mind, new Camren fic yaaay. Great beggining! Can't wait to see how it turns out.
Me too :)
Me too :)
Prologue – First impressions
That was it the first day in my new job. I didn’t know much about this place expect that I will spend whole summer here before my studies and of course I will work with other girls that I’m still unfamiliar with. We will live in a mansion with our rooms and there will be few people looking after us and helping us. That was all that Dinah told me before we got ready to this adventure and I AM adventurous.
I said my goodbyes and left first thing in the morning, firstly we took a flight and then drove there by some rented car. Everything fascinated me - I have never been in such a beautiful place before.I don’t want you to think that I’m complaining or even that I really need this job…to tell the truth I would survive without it. My parents have enough money to let me go to college, we have a huge house and this whole summer trip is like my vacation.My first real job. But I was ready for it.I was excited.
Next thing I knew we were already at the mansion meeting with other people that will live there. Outside of house I met Normally beautiful dark girl, also Ally she was really funny and happy and made me laugh instantly. There was also Jennel, she looked scared like a lost puppy and when I think about it most likely I looked just as scared as she was but I had Dinah with me and as I understood at least for now Jennel was all alone here. There was also blonde girl, very beautiful blond girl she was confident and smiled widely I was unsure whether I will like or hate her but most likely you can chose only one of those two options.Of course there were some guys as well thought I wasn’t as invested in them as in girls because I was always awkward around guys,I can’t really explain it.I never had a boyfriend though I’m nineteen years old now and to tell the truth I never wanted one.Dinah sometimes jokes that maybe I like girls because that would explain my instant flirting and she said that in that case I most likely have a crush on her.I laugh at that but I never liked a girl. Just like I never liked a guy. So who knows? Also I’m hopeless romantic so yeah, I’m hoping to find the love of my life some day. Whoever that might be. But sorry I forget to mention guys that were here.There were only three of them Drew,Wes and Arin and Drew was kind of interested in me.I didn’t notice it but Dinah kept on joking that it was obvious.
Later on we all went to our rooms, well they were arranged so I couldn’t share one with Dinah which was disappointing but Jennel seemed nice so I didn’t mind it. We will have to work together so why not get to know each other better.
Three hours later we settled down but it was still morning so there was all day ahead of us.Jennel seemed nervous again maybe because we got different couches, sorry for calling them this way,I don’t really know which word would fit them best so let’s stay with that at least for now.So apparently I will be meeting Lauren Jauregui and she will see Demi Lovato.I don’t know nothing about either of them but to tell the truth I’m curious to meet mine.I’m here to make friends that’s my goal and that’s what I will try to do.She should be nice and friendly, at least that’s how people around here seemed.They didn’t cared that we were outsiders.On the contrary,they even helped us to understand things better. Either way I didn’t have enough time to think about things properly because my meeting with Lauren should start any minute.All I hoped now was that Jennel will be lucky and left my room hoping the same for myself.
Fifteen minutes later I was sitting in a coffee shop where I looked around impatiently waiting for this girl though I was fifteen minutes early. Worst part was not knowing how she looked and I just hoped that she can find me. There were few girls coming inside but neither of them come my way and few even looked at me but without any interest at all. I waited looking around and probably looked like a lost puppy when one girl finally stopped right in front of me.At first I saw only her long tanned legs and very slowly did I looked at her face firstly unconsciously scanning her body.She raised her eyebrows disapprovingly “see something you like?” asking like I was something very small and insignificant.
My first impression of her change in a second but I still smiled politely “you are…Lauren Jauregui?”,”that’s correct” she stated firmly and sat in front of me not breaking eye contact but at the same time didn’t look interested in me at all.I was hoping that she would at least try to be friendly with me but I guess…I was very wrong. "Let’s go to some formalities because that’s all I need from you today".I nodded simply leaving my face expressionless so she wouldn’t notice my annoyance.Lauren took some paper with information and at first ask simple question like my phone number, who recommended me, explained what I have to do, how to smile and invite people to this place, about tips and other useful stuff.Later on it kind of slipped words that I regretted immediately “Well it’s my first time working so…". She lifted her eyes immediately “that’s your first job?" I nodded bitting my lip in frustration. She squinted her eyes “how old are you…20?21?" I knew she was 20 because that was the only thing everyone told me.That she was only one year older than me so we should get along.Obviously they were wrong. “I’m 19" she looked at me as if I was some princess so I asked impatiently “and what age were you when you start working?" “14" she answered shortly also adding “I guess not all of us needs work for living". I bit my tongue not to insult my future boss though her attitude really annoyed me. My friendliness still got the best of me “Will you come to the party tonight?","What party?","The party..tonight..here…I mean..eh..you work here?".She smiled coldly “I do.Listen, no offense but I’m not searching for new friends,I have enough of those,I’m here to teach you not talk about sunrise with you.So let’s keep this professional”. She seemed annoyed like having to explain to a child that he can’t eat crayon. I sighed defeated when she looked back at her paper but for whatever reason, I can’t explain it I still couldn’t take my eyes of her.
A/N Okay so I promised that I‘m going to write third part and I want to keep my promise even though it was like ages ago. Really sorry about that. Believe me if I could I would have written the second I got those request but unfortunately life is not that easy. Sorry I feel like I‘m just making excuse,but here goes the drabble.
Finally after 15 minutes of teasing us Dinah decided to left us of the hook and went to call Normani and Ally to tell them about it. Apparently girls has been shipping us from the start and we both were too blind to realize what we were feeling or at least I did. Camila knew about her feelings and fought against it for couple months not wanting to lose me.
That was sad in a way because we both were thinking about one another but didn‘t do anything about it. Now we were left alone to talk but I was unsure what to say. It‘s easy to think about things and I think I know what I want but it‘s hard to express thoughts and feelings for the person that matter. It‘s good thing that at least Camila knows me and probably isn‘t expecting too much.
“Laur she‘s gone“ Camila told me shyly trying to hide that adorable smile from her face that I learnt to love.
“We should talk“ I said hoping it wouldn‘t scare Camila though I sounded more serious than usual. I also hoped that Camila had better idea what we were now. Yes we confessed feelings to one another but… does it mean that we‘re together or…?
Camila looked at me hopefully than unsure what to say probably seeing confusion in my expression “I want to be with you but..I guess…I mean…we should take things slow…?“ she asked with sincerety and hope that all my doubts went away.
“No“ I said immediately not breaking eye contact with the girl that stole my heard.
“No“ she said not breaking eye contact with me and it scared me. I though Lauren wanted to be with me.I mean…she was going to kiss me earlier and she confessed her feelings,or am I just imagining things and she actually turned me down and I‘m just standing here like a fool expecting something impossible.
She noticed my sadness and added immediately “I want to be with you.But I don‘t want to take things slow…okay..that doesn‘t sound very nice…“she suddenly said more nervous than usual which made her so adorable I couldn‘t contain my smile. “I mean…I want to call you my girlfriend and everything…after all..girls already knows about it…and I mean…if you feel the same“.
“Of course I feel the same way,Lo!“ I almost shouted grinning and coming closer to hug her. I was just to hugs kissing part was still a little bit scary territory and I wasn‘t going to be the first one to kiss her. Lauren hugged me back and I could feel her smiling.
But all of the sudden few people jumped on us (seems like dejavu) and knocked us on the floor. I was ready to panic until I saw Normani,Ally and Dinah laughing all together. Ally soon stood up and started jumping around “It took you forever!“,“yeah you fools! We got tired of your eye-sex everyday but you never did anything. I mean…FINALLY!“
And they hugged us again,Ally jumping on us but you know how small Ally is, we barely felt it. I saw Lauren‘s grind and couldn‘t stop smile creeping my face. I got the girl and very supporting crazy friends who will probably cock blocks us till the day we die but still…I was in a really happy place.
I’m so insecure most of the time but than you,anon ;) obviously I can always count on you! :)
there was more Close Enemies request so I uploaded it.Sorry I write Everybody Talks when I can/have time…well that actually mean that I’m not sure when…but asap as they say… :/
I will continue it when I can :/ but not now :/
A/N More Close Enemies request so here it is :)
Even though my thoughts were a little bit cloudy because of the drinks I did realize that Lauren just rushed me with her actually dragging me without saying nothing, she seemed pissed and annoyed as if I had done the worst thing ever, or more correctly as if we were in relationship and I cheated on her. We came here without a car and I still was unsure what to do or say next because of Lauren’s determination while we walked to the beach and she squeezed my hand hard.
When we reached the beach and there was no people Lauren finally let go of my hand and turned around facing me, I though I would just die because of the way she looked at me. I waited for some lightning or something, never before have I seen so much emotions in one look “Do you want to be the slut of the party?” I noticed her anger but still the statement took me by surprise.
Not to talk about the fact that I was still kind of drunk – meaning more honest than ever “you’re attacking me?”. Honestly,I wasn’t sure what I have done wrong because obviously I had the right to do what I want – I’m not saying that I wanted to kiss Wes and he didn’t really put much into that kiss. As he explain it – let’s provoke her and see what happens. Well obviously now I was witnessing his plan and I don’t really like it. Gosh… I forgot the well known truth – never trust strangers.
“Attacking you? I didn’t take you here so you would sleep with the first guy that though that you’re pretty”. This made me laugh “Pretty? He didn’t say I’m pretty..okay…well…maybe he mentioned something…I’m not sure now…but what did you expected when you took me to the party?That I will stand in the corner and look at you and Keaton all the evening?”
“YES!” Lauren totally lost control startling even herself after this sudden confession. “I mean…”
“You mean that I should run after you like a puppy because every other person in your life done that whenever you wanted them to. It’s seem like you’re trying to prove some point but…”, “I know you like me!” She said once again losing control. If you think you have seen angry Lauren before – oh…how wrong are you. “I never said I like you!” I shouted back at her. Fortunately we were the only people in the beach and probably everyone else carried on with the party though from the balcony they could have seen this pathetic and in a way funny scene of two girls desperately shouting at each other.
Lauren looked frustrated and angry pacing from one side to the other and saying everything so fastly that it was hard for me to understand sometimes, probably because of my blurry mind and even vision. “I know you want me to tell you that I like you,I don’t understand why you want to hear it. Is this some game? Some dare or something? I know Cece likes these kind of things. People say she lives for entertainment. Did she put you up to this?That’s why you’re trying to get me to tell you things? But I’m not telling you things.I don’t like you. What makes you think I might like you? I know you like me…” she said like trying to prove something more to herself than to me.
It was probably the alcohol talking but I had enough of it “Like you?Why should I like you? You’re the most selfish person I know. You’re aggressive, arrogant, bitchy, bossy, careless, cruel, cynical, dishonest, grumpy, harsh, indecisive, mean, moody, vain, selfish, coward!” I’m was surprised that she let my carry on for so long actually looking at me quietly though I could have seen smoke(I mean I most likely imagine it considering the fact that Lauren was fuming with rage)
Obviously she disliked last statement the most “coward?”,”yes! You’re a fucking coward because you can actually tell me what you feel! Because you’re too scared to say that you like me!”. “I don’t FUCKING LIKE YOU! I HATE YOU!” I started walking away from her and from the beach “FINE! THEN I’M GOING BACK TO THE PARTY! AT LEAST WES LIKES ME!”
Before I can put another step I found myself in the sand. What the fuck? Did Lauren attack me? I guess this way she tried to keep me here but I started fighting too annoyed with everything, especially her bitchy attitude “Let me go! I’m going to be the slut of the party as you called me! I bet he’s good in bed!”.”You did not just said that!” She shouted furious still trying to keep me in place which was almost impossible because of my unexpected strength. “I bet he’s better than you!”.”He’s not better than me!You haven’t even slept with me! You don’t know that!” She said again this time managing to keep my hands in place behind my head and now lying between my legs.Actually in not so innocent position.
“I guess we never find out!” I shouted trying to fight a little longer though I could feel my body giving up “Now let me go! I want to have fun!”, “I can give you fun you would never forget!” she said breathing near me neck which made my whole body tremble. It doesn’t matter what I said my body was always showing more than I wanted and there was no way I could actually pretend that it didn’t get me aroused to a point where I didn’t care what’s going to happen. Probably that was also alcohol talking.
Lauren kissed my neck so lightly I almost felt it. Even butterfly kisses last longer but that one touch of her clouded my judgment and mind completely. I was sweaty, my view was blurry and not only from alcohol this time.I could feel my hands relaxing without me even fully realizing it.
Lauren repeated her short kiss again teasing me and whispered near my ear “all you have to do is tell me that you like me”. She let go of my hands and put hers on my waist probably realizing that I’m won’t manage to fight her now but I still put one of my hands on her shoulder in weak attempt whispering “tell me you like me”.
I guess that was a stupid battle and stupid stubbornness when neither one of us wanted to give up. “You tell me you like me!”, “I don’t like you!”, “I don’t like you,either!” Even Sofi didn’t act so stupidly as we did now. “I’m not going to fuck you if you’re not telling me you like me!”,”I can just go to Wes!”,”stop talking about that fool!”,”I’m not YOURS!” I shouted again desperately. Even though my body was screaming – touch me. My mind was screaming – RUN,Camila,RUN while you still can. “You said I’m yours! I’m not yours! Why should I be yours! You don’t even like me!”
“Stop fucking fighting it!” she said angry and when I though she will crush her lips with mine in reality she barely touched mine. Like feather. Every touch of Lauren’s lips today was like feather though her words stung like a bee.
“Just give up…” she said more quietly still kissing me as if scared that if she would kiss me harder I will disappear. Well she was correct about one thing – I might have exploded. My insides was set on fire like never before. Even yesterday night after our make out…all that grinding and you know…I mean yes that was the hottest experience I ever had but even that couldn’t compare with sensation I was feeling now. I tried to blame this on the alcohol but even it couldn’t make me feel that way… Finally I got to the conclusion that Lauren was going to win either way. If not today…maybe next day…or day after today… She always gets what she wants and it doesn’t matter that I try to fight this so hard…she doesn’t care. She’s not going to give up because of me. She’s not going to change. And despite all the bad characteristic traits of hers I knew that I liked all of that. I liked Lauren. I tried to hate her. She deserved to be hated. She treated me like shit. She didn’t care about me and still yet I was whimpering from every light touch of hers.
“Laur…en…”I desperately whispered her name breaking in the middle not really sure if begging her to stop everything that was happening now or asking to carry on because I couldn’t take it any longer.
Though her eyes were as aroused as mine and her breath was unstable she still waited. And I gave in. Not knowing what happens to me.To us. I just couldn’t keep it any longer.
“I like you…” I whispered barely audible but her face was so close to mine.I knew she heard me. At first Lauren’s face showed no emotions and I realized she really defeated me. I was even waiting for her to start laughing and say that she knew it all along and just play this whole game to get it out of me but instead still not saying a word Lauren leaned in kissing me with both of her hands on my face caressing my cheecks.
She has never kissed me this passionately before and it seemed like she put everything into that kiss.That was enough for a moment.I got the message.
A/N I’m not really sure when I can write again all my exams will end at the end of June actually and even know I should be studying and preparing but I obviously needed break and I felt inspired for the last couple of weeks so yeah…my passion for writing over took my “passion” for studying. Gosh I think I’m going insane already. I hope you liked it. I skipped my sleep to write this chapter so yeah… I’m trying. Sorry if it takes so long though.